…gUu…

we all live under the same sky but we don’t have the same horizon…

people say that good things happen to good people
but who is the one to judge what is good from bad
for a coin always has two sides
what if there’s good coming from one’s bad doing?
i wish to believe in this phrase as far as possible
sometimes though, i wish the phrase would try a little to convince me of it’s reliability

who is the one who seprates gossips from truth
when the one being gossiped has no chance of being true
why do words affect someone when they are just words

sometimes in life, no matter how hard you try it doesn’t pay off
then someone will come along and tell you that you haven’t tried hard enough
all these in progress when you see another not trying at all having the time of their life

so i ponder about love
i once heard a passerby say, "he cried a river, he must have really loved her"
so is love measured by the amount of tears one flow?
so if not a single tear was shed during a relationship there wasn’t any love?

i used to believe that if fate brings you to a certain distance
you can’t sit on your bum and wait for fate to do the rest
while growing up with this belief, destiny came walking by
what if there was fate but no destiny?
thus, what is meant to be will happen eventually,
no matter how far you try to run from it
when you take a break from running & look behind you
you’ll see that you’ve just ran a circle

countless friendships we see come and go
ironically we always judge the best friendship with the last friendship
so is friendship measured by the number of people around you?
or who you have beside you?

i’ve laughed and i cried
i’ve seen the good as well as the ugly sides of people
i’ve think i’ve fortunately seen the amount of life that some may never see
though i know to some others may just be a small part of their story
i’m still waiting for what the future is going to bring me
still on the path of the never ending journey of life

do you know where you’re going to?
do you like the things that life is showing you?

where are you going to, do you know?

do you get what you’re hoping for?
when you look behind you there’s no open door

what are you hoping for, do you know?

i have decided to come up with a wishlist… i hope to complete all by… 30? ok, that gives me 8 years…

be an official champion for dead or alive

buy a lappie (so that i can stop smuggling paper and pen into the national library)
buy a digital camera (PINK sony cybershot t-series!)
buy a mclaren mercedes sports car
buy a mp3 play with usb/flash drive (cuz my sister is cruel and taking hers back from me)
buy the game counter strike (so that i can beat bubu and jason butt blindfolded)
finish my degree
finish the sewing for my mom & dad (i’ve been owing them for about 7 years now)
finish watching jewel in a palace
finish watching winter sonata
keep wishing that bubu will set up lan system with his computers (so that we can lan for free)
learn tarot card reading
learn to make buffalo wings with blue cheese dip
lose 5kg (doesn’t seem alot, but it’s bloody difficult for me ok)
meet mika hakkinen (only the greatest f1 driver, NOT MICHAEL SCHUMACHER)
strike 4D (1st price)
strike big sweep (1st price)
strike toto (1st price)
visit a fortune teller
visit all the race tracks of the formula 1 calendar
visit china with bubu (so that i can see all the historical places that i have been fascinated about)
visit mana mana with nadia (so that we can finally see how it looks like)

i feel so lost sometimes.

sometimes when something goes wrong, people will come along and tell me, ‘do this! don’t do that!’. i oblige and get the things done right.

sometimes i feel that i’m doing much more than what i should be doing, in general, in life.

and then i stop, step back and tell myself, ‘hey, you’re only 21!’

ya hey, i’m only 21 what am i doing? is this my prime time to play and roam? or is it right to stress out so much?

when something goes wrong, i still want to whimper and shed tears on my bubu’s shoulders, yet i have to look strong and bold.

my mom will say, "you’re still a little girl, you’re only 21!" hell ya, i’m only 21! so leave me alone for goodness sake!

so should i live like i’m 21? how should a 21 year old live? how did you live when you were 21?

                  you walked lightly into my life
                  captivating my mind,
                  at first, i never cared who you were
                  now i don’t know who i am without you,
                  you kissed me
                  i felt my world change,
                  you held me
                  i heard my heart awaken,
                  you loved me
                  and my soul was born anew
                  you walked lightly into my life
                  now my heart knows who you are
                  and with every breath
                  and every step
                  i take down lonely roads,
                  your hand is my staff
                  your voice is my guide
                  your strength my shelter
                  you’re passion my awakening.
                  you walked lightly into my life,
                  and all my pain
                  you took as your own,
                  and all my fears
                  you cast into the sea,
                  all my doubt
                  lost in your eyes,
                  you walked lightly into my life
                  my life is forever changed,
                  just because you loved me
                  and because i chose
                  to love you
                  for the rest of mine

devastation struck me.
history of the past.
when i was at rock bottom
i couldn’t find the way of light.
your outstretched hand was my cushion of life
and i was glad it was yours

everything accelerated after that
two runners decided to stop and pant
afraid of the feelings felt
the anchor of our love pulled us down
a miracle it was for some to quote

now that a year has passed
i’ve grown in love with you
everyday when i thought i couldn’t love you more
you amazed me at how i could

you became my friend
you became my soul
you became the one i was searching for

                  my heart is complete
                  with the love we share,
                  and our love grows more
                  beautiful each day

New intro to the family of dogs… i present to everyone… MAYA:

Maya is only at the tender age of 4 weeks, we’re still feeding her milk and she’s still trying to get used to the plastic nipple.

(pictures of maya on 8th June 06′)

good old days should never be forgotten, probably just laughed at probably the rest of your lives (take your parents for example). today, i stumbled upon a passage of words which was memorized by every girl.. just thought of sharing it.. it was some movie, teenage romance, typical hate-each-other-then-fell-in-love kind.. would you remember it?

10 things i hate about you

i hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair
i hate the way you drive my car, i hate it when you stare
i hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind
i hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme
i hate the way you’re always right, i hate it when you lie
i hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry
i hate it that you’re not around, and the fact that you didn’t call
but mostly i hate the way i don’t hate you
not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all

when cancer and virgo make a love match, a strong, down-to-earth relationship with staying power is the happy result. this is a relationship with great potential to get better and better over the passing years. both cancer and virgo are goal-oriented and disciplined. they are sincere and devoted to one another and share a strong sense of purpose. no lightweight love here: these two were not really built for flings! cancer and virgo deeply admire one another: virgo respects cancer’s quiet strength and dedication while cancer appreciates virgo’s keen adaptability and intelligence.

these lovers may get off to a slow start, but over time, bonds will only grow stronger. The cancer-virgo love match prides itself on common sense and strong principles over fluff and inconsequential or fleeting connections. they enjoy the material comforts of life, but they will only feel good about their bounty if it has come as a result of honest hard work. there could be tiffs if virgo becomes too critical for cancer’s easily bruised feelings; cancer needs to understand that it’s just virgo’s nature to point out what they observe, that it’s not a personal attack. a virgo may bristle at their cancer mate’s stubborn streak, but it’s a trait that a patient and understanding love partner like virgo could come to appreciate. also, virgo’s urge to serve suits cancer’s affectionate, nurturing nature well.

virgo takes an intellectual approach to life (especially compared to the emotional cancer), but still manages to be perceptive and intuitive enough to figure others out if they choose. good thing for the crab, then, that a virgo mate can get a feel for devotion and domestic fulfillment if that’s what their cancer lover desires. these two won’t argue about fulfilling one another’s needs. they’ll work at it and relish the rewards of their conscientiousness.

true to their name, are down-to-earth, but they can also be materialistic and preoccupied with acquisition. the cancer-virgo love partners like to surround themselves with comfortable, well-crafted things. water signs rely on feeling and intuition, making cancer the emotive force behind this relationship, in a subtle cancer way, of course. along with their desire for prosperity, their love of a fancy home life ensures that this couple will work hard toward this shared goal. also, they’re practical pair, and losing control is never really an issue.

while cancer gets things going, virgo thrives on a changing routine of responsibilities and challenges. because they’re so ubiquitous, virgo will find a place in Cancer’s plans if they really want to. virgo will keep in mind Cancer’s plans, and will eventually bring results even if cancer has moved on.

what’s the best aspect of cancer-virgo relationship? their dedication to working toward the same goals. both partners in this love match enjoy a stable home life and nice things, and virgo truly enjoys helping cancer along the way to achieving their goals. their shared goals and desires make theirs a highly compatible love match.

time waits for no one as sure as the tide pulls the ocean
as sure as the path that has been chosen, cannot be changed
in my life’s destination i searched for the explanation
for some kind of reason for my sorrow and pain
but in my isolation i learned to listen
to be thankful for the love that i’ve been given

in my desperation i swore never again
would i hear all the laughter of my friends and my family
a million tears that i’ve cried then began to dry
in the silence of the night time
i have come to realize a sweet inspiration
and it filled my horizon
it gave me the heart to go on and never would give in

this is my journey, a journey through life
with every twist and turn, i’ve laughed and cried
as the road unwinds
this is my journey, and i’ve learned to fight
to make me strong enough, to lift me up
and to bring my dreams alive

i’m going to love each moment of every day and every night
i’ll look back to the past with the sweetest smile
for now i realise i’ve been given the key to life
i’ve been kissed by the angel by my side

"the journey" ~ 911